i wondered

so now i know i am not done bitching my mode is still deterating and i am getting sader and sader i with margar would get online so we can talk. man she was right i am a dork. and i am realy strange if u ask me. well now i will probly only bitch like 3 more times

uhhhhh

i am realy sad right now. i don't know why i just wana huddle in a dark corrner but then everyone would ask me whats wrong and it would drive my crazy. though i still realy miss margar which i already said today but i realy miss her so i am going to say that again. i may be done bitching today i don't know mabye not. i guess i will find out

Margar

god i can't stop thinking of margar. i meen i was watching this show lie to me and wonderwall played and then the cure was in this realy weird movie that i don't remember what it was called and both of those made me miss her more and sulk alot. i realy miss her <3 mabye i can see her on wensday i don't know

Uhhhhh

god i miss seeing margar. i hope i can see her next week or somthing. i just wanted to say that

Randy Rhoads

i just watched a trubute of randy rhoads and it almost made me cry and if u know me thats alot

uhhhhhhh

i am so bord !!!!!! my mom made this stupid system and it is so anoying. 0_o
ok i am done bitching

Loosing it

i swear my grip on reality if fading i am seeing things that scare the shit out of me i am spacing out i sweare i spent like 2 hours feeling like i was high two days in a row while i don't take any drugs. god whats wrong. i swear i even drew a cross in my blood. i am seeing, hearing, and feeling things that are not there.

wow i suck

i got a F in my english class XD i kick major ass in that class.

FUCK FACEBOOK

FACEBOOK KEEPS CALLING ME EMO!!!!! it is pissing me off

one of my favorite song's lyrics

"Strawberry Gashes"Turn her overA candle is lit, I see through herBlow it out and save all her ashes for meCurse me sold herThe poison that runs it's course through herPale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all overWatch me fault herYou're living like a disasterShe said kill me fasterwith strawberry gashes all overCalled her overand asked her if she was improvingShe said "feels fine" it's wonderful wonderful hereHex me told herI dreamt of a devil that knew herPale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all overWatch me fault herYou're living like a disasterShe said kill me fasterwith strawberry gashes all overI lay quietwaiting for her voice to say"Some things you lose and some things you just give away"Scold me failed herIf only I'd held on tighter to herPale white skin that twisted and withered away from me away from meWatch me lose herIt's almost like losing myselfGive her my souland let them take somebody else get away from meWatch me fault herYou're living like a disasterShe said kill me fasterwith strawberry gashes all over all over me