i wondered

so now i know i am not done bitching my mode is still deterating and i am getting sader and sader i with margar would get online so we can talk. man she was right i am a dork. and i am realy strange if u ask me. well now i will probly only bitch like 3 more times

uhhhhh

i am realy sad right now. i don't know why i just wana huddle in a dark corrner but then everyone would ask me whats wrong and it would drive my crazy. though i still realy miss margar which i already said today but i realy miss her so i am going to say that again. i may be done bitching today i don't know mabye not. i guess i will find out

Margar

god i can't stop thinking of margar. i meen i was watching this show lie to me and wonderwall played and then the cure was in this realy weird movie that i don't remember what it was called and both of those made me miss her more and sulk alot. i realy miss her <3 mabye i can see her on wensday i don't know

Uhhhhh

god i miss seeing margar. i hope i can see her next week or somthing. i just wanted to say that

Randy Rhoads

i just watched a trubute of randy rhoads and it almost made me cry and if u know me thats alot

uhhhhhhh

i am so bord !!!!!! my mom made this stupid system and it is so anoying. 0_o
ok i am done bitching

Loosing it

i swear my grip on reality if fading i am seeing things that scare the shit out of me i am spacing out i sweare i spent like 2 hours feeling like i was high two days in a row while i don't take any drugs. god whats wrong. i swear i even drew a cross in my blood. i am seeing, hearing, and feeling things that are not there.