i crave her call

right now all i wish is to die. i don't diserve to live. and i know people will say oh yes u do and i don't want u to die. i know myself beter than them and if they knew me like i know me then they would agree with me. blah blah blah god i am a whiny bitch. thats all i have done on this fucken thing for the last 6 or so entrys. and look i keep on whiny. endless cykle of whining. see now i would be doing everyone a favor by shuting myself up. well that ended wierd and i still feel weird but whatever. like usual bye bye